My first love from high school found me in November on Facebook. But I was in the middle of a divorce and didn’t have the brain capacity to process everything that entailed, so I only accepted his friend request, I didn’t reach out. Fast forward to April, when some serendipitous events happened which lead to me messaging him on Messenger. Since then we’ve been talking a thousand times a day. We’ve Facetime’d a thousand times and though a quarter of a century has gone by, there hasn’t been a single second of awkwardness between us. It’s as if we’ve fallen right back where we were when we were babies. Love with him feels easy, deep and steady.
He recently came up to visit me, and though he doesn’t believe the same things as I do, he entertains me and lets me go on about these crazy spiritual happenings I’ve experienced throughout my life. Because I understand Soul Families and that we come back together three thousand times in different roles, I wanted to see what I could discover about the history of the soul of my Love and I. I didn’t want to do an illumination, which would have been the fast track way for me to find out information. I wanted to do this exercise because I wanted him to experience some of this crazy and open up his mind to the possibility that everything is real.
So I got my Love and we sat in a dimly lit room and took deep breaths and began staring into each other’s eyes. The first few things our brains did was scary for both of us. Your brain will contort the face you’re looking at and make the person’s eyes appear very large, like an alien’s. And the FINAL step, right before the magic happens, is the face you’re staring at will COMPLETELY disappear. This is where you have to hold on. You can blink, but you CANNOT look away, or else your brain will start the process all over again. Be warned, this is a very intimate thing to do. You should be very close to the person you’re practicing this with.
As we sat there, in the darkish, my Love’s beautiful blue eyes stayed the same, but the face around them melted away into an older version of him in this life. Now, I’ve done this a few times with my family members, but I’ve always been taken to a face that was from a past life we’ve been together in. I’ve NEVER experienced seeing into the future of this life, nor have I read any where that this was even possible.
I loved this. The love pouring out of his eyes was the same, except very deep set wrinkles formed all around the primary places in his face and his hair turned all gray. I asked him what he saw and he described my face but much older in this life as well. I was amazed! I didn’t tell him I saw an older version of him! This is where the magic in these things happens! In finding that two or more people experience the same exact thing!!!
For him, my face changed many more times. He said at one point I looked like a stereotypical witch with the hooked oversized nose and the devilish eyebrows. Eventually my face changed into a Neanderthal, with an elongated forehead and mouth. I giggled again in fascination, as that was EXACTLY what I saw as I gazed into my Love’s eyes. The same love poured out of his eyes, he still felt steady and deep and calm, but his forehead was much taller and flatter and his mouth and jaw were broader, more pronounced and he was very hairy. Think “Harry and the Hendersons!” That’s what he looked like and that’s what he said I looked like as well.
What else fascinated me about seeing his face in this lifetime is that there wasn’t a sense of ownership or definite role. When I did this exercise with my son a few years ago, it was evident that he was my husband and he said I felt like his wife. (It explains a lot about our relationship now, he often acts like a little protective, possessive man :D) My feeling with my Love leads me to question the development of our brain and ability to think “mine” or “love.” Did we really tap into a super early humanoid existence before “Man” developed a sense of possession or titles of “my wife” “my love” “my woman” or “my man?” It’s fascinating nonetheless. And regardless of this possessive feeling (or lack thereof) the affection was there and it was very deep.
I experienced something else in this, and that was a deep sense of sadness. I couldn’t hold eye-contact for too long, because between my heart and my throat this IMMENSE feeling of sadness kept threatening to surface. I didn’t want to ruin such a beautiful moment with tears of sadness- especially ones where I couldn’t even explain the root cause of it. Of course I can delve into the root of this in an illumination on myself or him, but my guess is that in that life my Love was taken from me in some tragic way that left a hole in my soul that I’ve carried around for thousands of years.
I love that we could still feel our affections for each other in this exercise. I read once, in “Conversations with God” that God told the author “If everyone held eye contact, they would all fall in love with each other.” Not that I’m saying you’ll fall into romantic love, but your relationship may fall into a deeper state of “knowing” with the person you decide to do this exercise with.
Try this and let me know how it works out for you. Don’t feel stupid and remember to HOLD ON past the scary parts of what your brain will do to the face you’re staring at 🙂
We’ve all been here before. We’ve come together countless times, each time playing different roles in each other’s lives. We get an infinite amount of tries to “get it right.” And we are always loved far more than we can fathom.
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